Fit. Out. (Fit In but Stand Out)

Are any of you scared of change?

This is only a thought that tends to come back around quite often.
I used to think I love change, and I still I do,
but now I'm also scared of it.

For some reason I'm scared of what people think when change does occur. In the sense that, I change and to me that change was a good change in terms of what paths
I want to take with my life.

Yet, I change and all those who were around me before now all of a sudden disapear because to them my change was a negative and they couldn't accept it.

Then comes the time to think to myself who's change is it anyway?

Is it mine?

I can't really say that because I too was changed by something or experiences
that occurd in my life through my transitional phase.

Is it fine for those I was with before to now remove themselves because my change doesn't
fit in with their current and
"its just not them"?

Maybe.

However,like I said this is just a thought...

Today I leave you with this
:"replace the fear of the unknown with curiosity"

Peace
Ess

You're Not Ugly, Society Is.

Its only been 6 months of full on living in this city, being from a calm and collected maybe even too rigid "city", I've come to realize a trend that always occurs through comfort. You meet someone, they seem sincere, you get to know them, they become comfortable around you and then BAM- hello ho!

This city is filled with so many talented peeps, well at least the ones I've come across. Smart, cool & fun to say the least. Everyone seems to be contributing to society in many ways than the norm.

I've learnt that its not a big deal for one girl to sleep with a whole circle of guys in the same group of friends because "hey, we're all friends right?"

I've learnt that for some people, life is what they make it out to be, acting to be a bitch just to get attention can be entertaining therefore allowing you to have more "friends".(You don't saaaay)

I've learnt that everyone is crazy, literally everyone isss cooked but its OK.(Yeah, even you)

I've learnt that you can never be too young to be a "diva".(What's your name? -"Sarah Glamtrashmilksuckinglollypoplicking Thomas " -uh niiice?)

I've learnt that some people don't get the accreditation they deserve, but its fine, we're a "team" & "when you get accreditation its for all of us"(bullshit!).

I've also learnt that cocaine is no longer that dirty drug that makes your nose all snoty and numb, where you waste a whole day by sleeping because of it and every time you wake up its dark because you're constantly sleeping through the day then "let's have a couple of more lines because we can handle this shit woohoo".(Thumbs Up!)
Bullshit!! If you're going to tell me "you've been doing it for sooo many years & you know how to handle it" Idiot, you've been doing it for so long because you're HOOKED! There's no handling that shit!

I've also learnt that when you're someone like me going through a transitional phase in your life, people like this are sometimes what you need just so you can know what NOT to do.

Don't worry, You're Not Ugly, Society Is.

Peace
Ess

"This City Is Afraid Of Me"

She's not even known, she's not even bothered. She's young and into it- into it all, they are all intrigued by her chilled personality and trying to figure her out. She's easy to make friends with but be careful because she can see right through you. We know who she is but yet we have not the slightest clue.
She knows. She knows a lot about us, almost all our dirty secrets- this is what makes her dangerous and I hate to say but in a sense "powerful".

She walked into everything with such ease and confidence. She walked into our lives.
Yeah I know ya'll don't like the term "scene" but face it there is one, we are all a part of some "scene" one way or another. We all judge people by putting them under certain groups and in that way we can differenciate oursleves from who "they" are to who we are.

Your group of friends are a scene on their own, let's not take the word "scene" like something we pulled out of a tabloid magazine because its not. We are all different therefore comes the diferent social scenes or an even worse term "social classssss".

I almost forgot my point, I was saying, she's around you and she's listening.

Don't be afraid of her she doesn't seem to bite, I wish I knew more about her but ill only get as close as to writing about her.

Today I leave you with this
"Stay true to who you are"

Peace
Ess.

The Life I Want To Live

My Creative Insight!! Hello!!!
Its been way too long, sad to admit that I've neglected my blog, trust, my creative development has not been neglected, not by an ounce. I've grown, immensely its unbelievable even if I say so myself. My life has taken a huge 360 degree turn for the better.
Life is one beaut, I must say! There's so much that's been going on, from finding a new place to stay to taking on new challenges. I'm always up for a challenge its what life is all about, atleast that's what I think. So I've found a new place to stay, yeah, I've finally figured out what I want to do for the next couple of months something that's been in my mind for like foreverrr!! Yeah the grind has been beautiful,but now that its over, I can finally relax and start with some more creativity.


I've realised that creativity doesn't only mean painting and doing all those arty fartsy stuff, its way deeper than that, yet still so widely undermined. Curse those who undermine creativity haha! There have been some heavy thought processing happening in the past couple of days, I've taken time to myself to figure out what exactly it is that I want to do, the signs have all been there but I've been in such a rush trying to figure out what it is, that I almost missed it totally. I found it, almost didn't but almost doesn't count :). I'm very glad I found it though because it all became so clear to me once I started talking about it to those who matter, I'm happy to say that I've met a lot of really cool people who can work with me to make it happen. I don't like being told what to do, so this is just perfect because its all me and my rules, although I will have to get a lot of other peoples opinions and all that but believe me I really don't mind.


Music, yes! The other life, called Music - I want to live in it. This is only the beginning peeps, keep your eyes and ears pealed. I've discovered the whole lifestyle behind music, a life where everyone becomes one under one sound system and just living it, pure living and happiness. I've also that one of my favourite genre's of music seems to be dying slowly but surely, we need to educate the youth, we need to bring it back to the to where it used to be, Cape Town is too awesome for something like that to happen and the music scene especially this specific genre is being destroyed and we can't have that!

Let's keep things alive, ill be doing my part hope you'll be doing yours too. This may have seemed a bit too vague I understand but it'll all become clear very soon don't fear, the end is not yet near! Lol! That was slightly lame.

Today I leave you with this.
:
To live a creative life, we must lose the fear of being wrong. - tumblr saying images

Peace
Ess

We Are Beautiful Losers

Last night was the screening of the film "Beautiful Losers" at the Word Of Art Woodstock Indutrial Centre, Cape Town. My friend from college Gaelle Van Goethem asked me to come check it out, I had no idea what this was all about all I knew was that it had something to do with art and there was going to be music and booze so I thought siick I should check it out. I went with a bunch of my friends and I'm glad I did because its the kind of vibe you want to enjoy with your closest "like you" friends. I dig the whole arty vibe, the fashion, music and art, that's what I'm all about so this place had all of that and I enjoyed it a lot. Prior to this I had a lot on my mind and I was keen to go out and get my mind off things but I wasn't too keen for the usual Friday night "doof doof" vibe so this was exactly what the doctor orded.

There were some really funky people, some looked like they had just stepped out of the 80's by the way they were dressed. I love how Cape Town portrays an awesome PopCulture scene which is very influencial to any creative. This tickled my fancy because I love fashion most especially vintage wear. Everyone was different yet all the same in their different ways, I enjoyed just sitting and watching the people around me and admiring their differences.

Places like these are awesome for networking, unfortunately I didn't take that opportunity, don't be like me in that department grab each opportunity you're provided with both hands. However I'm not too bummed though because I knew that this wasn't where it stoped for me infact this was only just the begining, I now promise myself that I will be attending more of these exhibitions because they are exeptionally great for your creative development. I am definately looking forward to the next art exhibition or any exhibition that has anything to do with creativity.

So today I leave you with this: "Do what you love and do it often"- author unknown.

Peace
Ess

Random Thoughts

I believe in my dreams because they are mine and no body elses. If I don't believe in them it doesn't leave much room for them to grow. Its a clear must to believe in your dreams, really it is. That's me assuring you right there. I like assuring people, sometimes all someone wants when you tell them something is for you to assure them that what ever they're thinking or telling you is good, unless it really isn't. Its the same with when you believe in your dreams and you tell someone else and they kind of give you the cold shoulder about it, it really doesn't make you feel good does it? That's when you need to step in and tell yourself that you believe in your own dreams and that no matter what happens you're going to -.make.them.work.
Imagine a world without dreamers it would be so dull and empty, that is why we have the things we do. Someone thought that they should make something where people could sit on with others around them or next to them and that's why we have chairs, I won't exaclty get into the whole thing of how and who came up with the idea of a chair. All I'm saying is that if someone came up to that person who had the idea of making a chair and told them its a stupid to even think of something like that, like it will never work.
If that individual did not believe in that dream at that time or did not have some re-assurance of his own or those around him, I wouldn't be sitting here right now - or unless maybe I came up with that idea in the latter, okay no I wouldn't have been born in those years but yeah you know what I mean :).
OK so basically what I'm saying here is that what I've observed with my own creative development is that I have learnt to believe and re-assure myself with my dreams. No matter how big they are. After all like my friend Kirst Bouch always say "we're all insane in the membrane" ha ha yeah that is pretty lame but I DIG IT!! :)

Peace
Ess

Dreamer

I often ask myself how I would like my life to be in the future, really, I have no idea. In all honesty its very hard for me to decide or even begin to put into words where I see myself in ten years. All I know is that I want to be BIG! Yeah, that's right. I want to be big, by this I mean making it in what ever I decide   or where ever the universe puts me, I want to make it big. 

Part of this will probably include branding, events and just working in an environment of very excited people because I love people. I love making people feel good when they're around me. I want to be a person where people will come to me with confidence and know that if they give me a task to do they can only expect good results and vice versa. I want to be in a creative environment and work around creative people, people with good insight and want to change the world and turn it into something unimaginable.

A place where we can walk around with spray paint cans in our hands and mess up the walls as we walk on by without having to worry about being arrested because its cool. I want to create a town and build a community, a community of artists where anything and everything is allowed. I want my name to go up on the credits at the end of a series or show. I want the world to know my name and mention it with positivity. I want to be big! Yeah that's right, I want to be insanely big! So here's to me trying to make it big, here's to the ones around me helping me become big in a simple or great way.

Salvador Dali
Let's all make it big, let's all take the ideas that we think are stupid and turn them into something real and smart. Because like the Apple advert says-"those crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones who do". 

Peace
Ess